Tuesday, April 17, 2012

Self-Reflective Much?

Do I get self-reflective on here too much?  Hmm.  Okay, I honestly don't care.  Suck on it, there sunshine.  Anyway, I was saying how I've been feeling self-reflective, so here we go...

I wonder often if I'm different than others in the way that I look at myself.  I think we all think ourselves superior in one way or another to other people.  Hmm... maybe I shouldn't have started off in such a self-centered way.  Oh well, if you wanna read on, please do.  If you don't, I'll see you later.  I... should stop starting my sentences with I... ANYWAY...  The preceding descent into unadulterated narcissism was only to say that I know I spend a lot of time thinking on me.  The fact that I spend a lot of time thinking on me leads me to wonder how that compares to others.  I feel like I prolly spend more time doing it than others do, but what if I don't?  In reality, that's probably not of terrible import, but it is definitely something I've reflected on of late.

I feel more comfortable in my own skin than I have in a long time... if not ever.  Those who've known me for a long time probably realise that I had big time self-esteem issues in middle school, high school, college, early (emerging) adulthood... and realising the source of those problems helped me begin to overcome them. To be honest, I was doing a decent job with them before I moved, but holy hell, moving threw me into a whole new zone of discomfort... and I couldn't rest on my laurels there.  Between moving a solid day's drive away from everything that I'd really ever known, and not knowing what the hell I was going to do... It kinda pushed me, and stretched me at the same time.  It's made me try different things to make friends!  All of that has gotten me to a point where I truly have my head in a better place than it's ever been.  Ah hell, okay, I feel better about myself than I ever have.

As I told her that it is worthy of not only acknowledgement, but also celebration, I should tell you all that Markeya and I marked six months of being together last week.  If you get sick to your stomach when people talk about their significant others online (ya know, like I used to- nay, still tend to- I'll try and keep this to a minimum), skip the rest of this paragraph.  She is an incredible woman.  I can't tell you how blessed I feel.  Not only is she beautiful, but she's athletic as hell, pushes me (I mentioned this in my last blog... ah hell, I'm becoming that guy), she's smarter than I am (Stop, I know I'm smart... I get it... I'm not saying this to be self-deprecating, this is legit), and is faithful and devout.  She really is exactly the kind of woman I didn't know I had been looking for. Keya and I will be in Denver on the 10th of May, leaving the 14th.  I am pretty sure I've made mention of this trip previously, but I'm working on getting plans in place, so I'll let people know as plans develop.

For some reason, I feel the need to throw some unabashed advertising in here.  Visit Jay's blogs (jnoblepeteranetz.com, thereckoning2005.com).  It will help him a SH!#ton when it comes to his comic future.  His work is amazing, and it looks like he's on the brink of things really taking off.

Welp, once upon a time I had a hilarious end to this blog, but I have forgotten it.  I HATE it when I do that.  Jeezy Creezy.  I guess I'll end it with this profound sense of "meh" and catch up with you all later.  Thanks for reading!  Oh, and final thought.  Y'all still know me.  I haven't changed THAT much.  If you wanted to laugh at part of this EFFING DO IT!  Good lord, I still don't take myself all that seriously!!!